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My mom brought me an article last week and said, "It's by this author, Libbie Bray. Ever heard of her?"
"Um, it's Libba Bray, Mom. And yes, I've heard of her." Duh. Who hasn't heard of Libba Bray? *insert eye roll*
here in Delta Sky Magazine, page 144.)
But as I got to thinking harder about the love affair analogy, I realized she was missing an early step that tripped me up pretty badly. The FEAR OF COMMITMENT and/or FEAR OF RUINING WHAT YOU HAVE and/or FEAR OF GETTING HURT.
As I wrote DESTINED, I worked pretty steadily on that first draft... until the very end. I had like 90,000 words, knew how it was going to end, and only had two chapters left until the first draft was finished. Completing those two chapters took me months. Absolutely, I realized I was suffering from a psychological hang-up... but that didn't help me finish.
I was so in love with the story, and yet I couldn't bring around its resolution for months. In the whole love affair analogy, it's sort of like holding off on having sex. To this day, I don't know whether it was a fear of commitment: Yes, you're a wonderful book and I love you, but this is just too big of a step for me right now. Or whether it was a fear of ruining what I had going on: What if you don't want me anymore once it's over?
Eventually, I did finish and I fell back in love with my story. By the time I wrote it, the epilogue was basically composed inside my head and it's (I hope) romantic, and tender, and just what I wanted it to be. So maybe my brain was holding off, making me wait for the perfect moment to take that last step in the relationship. You know, a waves crashing on the beach, stars twinkling overhead, with the perfect song playing in the background like a movie, kind of moment. All I can say is, I'm glad that stage of the relationship is behind me. Here's hoping it doesn't rear its ugly head in book 2!
I hope I'm alone in this book-relationship hang-up, but has anyone else suffered from the affliction? How did you get past it?